I am BACK!!!!!!

But where did you go? You may well ask....Well I did not disappear physically, no, I mean it is myself who has returned, the person I was deep down, who I lost some sense of these last few years. 

Once upon a time I was a happy, bright positive woman, the only thing was I had a really useless dull job and a rather useless love life.  I did not appreciate how much of my happiness was down to what I already had and to lose that, even if gaining what I felt I did not have, would result in a fundamental loss of self.

I have learnt so very much these last few years, I have learnt that some sacrifices are not worth making.  I have learnt that to start from a bad place, ends in a bad place and that all steps must be joyous ones to produce joy.  One must feel they are always ascending and not descending, whether that is mentally, emotionally or physically.  I learnt that there is no greater delusion than self delusion.

I learnt that you can't always trust all advice and you must listen to your heart. That some will put their own interests above your own. I learnt that practical experience beats book learnin' hands down! ;o))
I learnt that just because you want something, doesn't mean you should get it.

I may never regain all that I lost these last few years, there will always be massive regrets but I know how easy it is to make mistakes and I have certainly learnt from them.  I will keep on using this knowledge to help others and I will strive to build upon my life, how it is now so that it is enriched by my knowledge and experience and I will never, ever, take my boring old 'useless' dull life for granted ever again!!!!



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